I was burning up with fever a few nights ago and Billy put his face close to mine. “Dalmation ... BALmation!!” he screamed with laughter at the hilarity of his joke about the 101 Dalmations and nearly fell off my bed. Then, in case I wasn't aware of his intent (and to be honest, it's hard to tell sometimes), he pressed his nose close to mine and grinned widely as he informed me, “I making kidding ... IN YOUR FACE!”

Billy_Borat

Knock Knock! Who's there? And at that point, he usually wanders off ...

At some point over the last couple of weeks, Borat moved into my house.

It's glorious. For the first time, Billy is making spontaneous comments about the world around him. It's sometimes in the broken, kookily-constructed English of an enthusiastic new immigrant from ... I don't know, maybe another planet ... but it is English. And it's not scripts he learned from books or movies.

Usually, it's narration of the world around him, particularly on the way to or from school: “That girl is driving a scooter.” “We have 101 trees!” Or “That dog is having a poo-poo.” Yes, keep walking.

On a few rare occasions, we've gotten a glimpse into something we'd never have known if he hadn't been able to tell us. “I'm thinking about ... Ms. Thorp.” Mrs. Thorp was his pre-K teacher last year. We haven't seen her since June, but he loved her. Knowing he was thinking about her inspired me to pull out pictures from last year and look at them together, remembering his friends and teachers and aides.

And occasionally, we're totally confused. Like the morning he came up to me and said, “I'm sorry, Mama.”

“What's wrong, baby?” I asked him.

“I'm scared of kangaroos,” he told me and jumped up into my lap for a big hug.

We just sort of sat there like that for a minute, as I tried to come up with a response -- “Fear of kangaroos” is not covered in What to Expect in the Toddler Years, but then again, neither is most of our life. And I finally just explained to him that we luckily live in Florida where there are no kangaroos, but if one starts bothering him, to be sure and let me know.

He could be calling the neighbor's dog a “kangaroo.” Or it could be some uniquely Billy way of saying he needs the bathroom. Or he could actually mean he actually hates kangaroos. (When you think about it, with the pockets and the jumping – on some level, it just ain't right.) Without a trip to Planet Autism, we may never understand it.

Anyway, the inexplicable kangaroo phobia aside, it's been an amazing couple of weeks, watching his words emerge. He's had words, of course, for a couple of years now, but mostly of the scripted variety. Or commands along the lines of, “Juice!” or “Be happy!”

Now he can talk about his favorites: “I love this story,” about 101 Dalmations.

And things he hates: “I don't need bananas!” Anything he doesn't like is something he doesn't need.

But the greatest breakthrough of the last six months came a few nights ago. He was sitting on the toilet, where we hang out a lot these days, as we've also been making big strides in the potty training arena.

He was reading his “magazine,” what he calls the Toys R Us catalog that came in the mail. He likes to look at toy catalogs, not because he wants to acquire the goods, but because he likes to look at pictures of other kids playing with toys. He's not interested in pictures of merchandise. But show him a picture of a kid actually playing with Legos, and he'll study it for 15 minutes.

As we waited for the magic to happen, he carefully looked over each page of his catalog, and I perused the Hammacher Schlemmer catalog to see what useless products like Circulation Improving Leg Wraps and a genuine 7-foot Robby the Robot from Lost in Space are going for these days ($149.95 and $50,000, respectively). So that's the scene.

Billy: That boy is making some golf.

Me: (without looking up) That boy is playing golf.

Billy: That girl is having a haircut.

Me: Yeah! Good job. (Then I actually look at the page.) Wait. She's asleep. What makes you think she's having a hair cut?

But Billy is already studying another picture. He's concentrating really hard. I can see the wheels turning and know he wants to say something. Finally, he points at the picture and looks at me.

Billy: Mama! What ... are ... they ... doing?

I drop my catalog to the floor. Instantly, tears are streaming down my face. It's incredible how fast that happened and I'm laughing and hugging him and explaining that the kids are jumping on a blow-up trampoline.

He has no idea what has happened and kind of wriggles out of my grasp so he can turn the page.

But I'm frozen and still wiping tears and I want to go tell Dave but I'm afraid Billy might want to ask another question and --

He asked a question. A WHAT question. A question that showed curiosity. A question whose purpose was just to get more information.

Prior to that day, the only questions we'd ever heard him ask – outside of repeating scripts – were “Where?” questions: “Where is Mama?” “Where are the crayons?” And even those are rare.

grouchoBilly

I'll be here all week ...

We sat there for another half-hour, looking at the toy catalog together, talking about the pictures. He asked me, “What are they doing?” a couple more times, like an old pro. And I couldn't stop crying those tears of joy the whole time.

If you can ask questions and listen to the answers, you can learn just about anything. Without the curiosity to ask, though, without the passion to find out the answers to questions, learning is really difficult.

So we've made another step. A big step. Towards what ... we're still finding out. Right now, based on the subjects about which he shows the most curiosity and for which he has the most passion, Billy's headed for a career as either a professional bowler, Dalmation breeder or pumpkin salesman. Or the world's greatest autistic comedian.

Ok, maybe comedian is still a stretch.

I'm making kidding. In your face.

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OK, I read that title too literally!

I love stories like this! So encouraging! GL is in the repetitive questions stage. And the middle school bathroom humor stage.

WHAT is WONDERFUL!

@Maura: Thank you so much. I feel those big hugs :-)

@Lynn: You're absolutely right. I was jumping for joy when I went into Billy's class on Monday and the only one available to tell was the teacher's aide (who we adore): "Billy's asking questions now! WHAT questions!!" Her response: "Yay?" If you don't actually have a child who's never asked questions, you don't realize how profound that silence is.

yay!

Some people might read this and wonder what the hell happened to make you cry with joy. Such a simple thing that parents of typical kids take for granted. Audrey has only just recently started consistently asking wh questions. It sounds like Billy is on his way!

Hooray!

Amanda, you are SUCH a good mom. This post gave me chills. What a thrill for you two! Congrats on a big step forward! Many, many congratulatory hugs from Columbus!

Knock, knock ...

@Chris: I actually heard Dan Ackroyd interviewed on NPR once about his Asperger's. I only heard the tail end of the interview but I remember thinking to myself, "Hmm. Super-successful actor, comedian, business owner, happily married to a former supermodel who is the mother of his well-adjusted children ... life on the spectrum don't have to turn out so bad." :-)

@Big Daddy: That is a GREAT idea! It pretty much sums up my life philosophy.

@Jeni: Thank you SO much. Breakthroughs make the occasional hard days a little easier to get through with a smile, huh?

@Stacey: I'm so glad we found each other! I can't wait to check out your blog and learn more about your family. How old is your son?

@Kathy: There are certain things that, try as I might, I "can't wike" either :-) Marmite, which my husband loves, for one. And eel for another. Thanks so much for stopping by!

@Dani: I firmly believe in Dr. Stanley Greenspan's philosophy that if they've EVER done it, it's a skill they have. There are a lot of things Billy did once and then it was a loooooong time before we saw it again, but we know it's in there. And I'll bet that Little Bird will be asking you about all kinds of things before long too. There was a time when I wouldn't have said that. There was a time when I didn't know if Billy would EVER ask a question. But I think once that flood gate -- or maybe with our guys it's more of a tiny break in the dam -- opens, then eventually, the waters will flow, however slowly, and along however winding a path.

@Wendy: Thank you so much, Wendy! Yeah, I don't need that bag of corn chips I keep in the freezer. For some reason, I think that freezing them makes them harder to eat. Works with chocolate ... not so much with corn chips.

@Ashley: That's a great idea! I think that'll be what I put on the T-shirts I have made up for the Autism Walk this year :-)

That's wonnnnderful! Go, Billy, Go!! And I lovvvve the making kidding in your face. Hilarious. Needs to be on a tee shirt somewhere! Happy Monday!

I'm so happy for you, Amanda! Congratulations!

Hugs,
Wendy

P.S. I'm with Billy...I don't "need" potato chips...oh, wait a minute...I like those!

W-H questions!

W-H questions are huge!! My bird is not there yet. Once about a year ago she asked "where's my juice?" spontaneously but haven't heard the ol' wh sound since. It's a great sign. Enjoy it, keep up the good work and keep encouraging it ALL!

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